not just a FAIRYTALE

I've always liked the rain. I like the lightning that lit up the sky for a moment, I like the thunderbolt which grabbed and shocking; I like the patter of rain falls on the streets. Even in the most quiet night though, I'm happy when it's rain. Lightning that could make adults fear, I welcome it excitedly; because I love the rain.

But he loves stars; every point of shining light up the night sky is always rewarded with a smile. Almost every night he sits on the edge of the window of his room with the curtains open, and silently staring at the stars. I don't know what he meant because he never told me; which clearly he hates the rain, because rain star cast.

Maybe that's why we both can't be united.
Because in the rainy night, could not have emerged stars
; and from the starry sky, there won't be rainfall.

hard times.

Sometimes I find it hard to hold these tears,
when it almost pours down,
especially when this kind of feeling comes.
I barely feel nothing,
except the pain I try to hide.
Too depressing.
Too hard.


- I wish you could be the one who hold my hand and lend your shoulder to cry in these hard times, the fact you're gone makes everything going worse

Yes, I had and I will do so

Once I've heard words of wisdom that says, "Use your time wisely". I think everyone wants to spend their time wisely, but what do you think about how people can spend their time "wisely"? Everyone has their own perception about that, a reasonable one, and these days I've been thinking how about my perception, what I called spend the time wisely. The first thing that comes up in my mind is to spend my time by doing anything I want without any regret.

Yes, that's what I called spend my time wisely, 'cause when I've done all of things that I think would be worth to do, even sometimes things are just messed up and out of prediction; and even it won't happen the way I want it to be, I won't be regret that I've done it, 'cause it's worth remember? :)

These days I feel time flies so fast, too fast actually, and that's the reason why I'm thinking about "do I spend my time wisely"? A lot of things happen in my life and some of those are just so unpredictable. Some problems, fall and rise again, tears and laughter, some things that mess me up, and some that strengthen me. Yes, I've been through all of it, and I'm so thankful to God that I've never felt any regret; I know He guides my path like what I asks to Him to.

So that once again I'm being asked if I had spent my time wisely, I think my answer is, "Yes, I had and I will do so with His guidance in my life". :)