Day 27

It's almost been a month since the first day I came here. Not a long time but there are lots of unpredictable things happen. But hey I still survive here, and believe it or not I become more comfortable being here. I start loving the city with its (unpredictable) weather, those beautiful roads, the silence of the night, and some of other things that I found it interesting lately. 

 

(Black Dress H&M, Necklace SIX, tribal ring SIX, stars ring forever21, lace shoes H&M)

"When you said your last goodbye
I died a little bit inside
I lay in tears in bed all night
alone without you by my side
but If you loved me
why did you leave me"

This city (finally) impressed me

I got the point, your point.
I should have known, should have realized.
But I believe in someday,
when a bittersweet story become a memorable thing to be remember.

Like an old saying 'something old, something blue'
For now, I will stay in my blue area.
Peaceful yet so full of dare.
Playful yet still in my safest zone.

 

Walking around the town become one of my hobby right now. Den Haag, yes this city (finally) impressed me these days. Not because its crowd, neither its landscape, but because its peaceful. I found it so nice to just walk around the town alone and seeing the bright blue sky with its cute clouds everywhere. I feel better somehow, even I don't know how long will this hobby gonna lasts. But for now, I think its enough.

I started posting some outfit photos, even just some ordinary clothes, not that dazzling. But I think somehow these days I dressed up expressing how I feel inside. :)

Black and white

Black and white are better than gray

Nothing to worry 'cause it's clear enough to be seen.

 

You don't need to care.

You're doing fine and sorry if I'm not.
I can't promise you anything,
but one thing I can tell that it is hard for me.
 















"Just once I let you go
I won't even say a word
Just twice I lie
I wave my hand and smile brightly
I stay up all night for millions and millions of times
I swear again and I vow again
I will cry and laugh alone
Memories are a beautiful sound of breathing
I thought I could get whatever I want
Even though people say I am a fool
Fear that your eyes will see how sad I am and it may upset you, 
I keep smiling and smiling
The lie I practiced all night feels awkward
The tears I hold back
The tears that end
The tears that choked me
Nobody in this world knows how I feel
I pull myself up once again and accept it with a thank you
You're saying goodbye"

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Like other fairytale, everyone for once wishes it could be come true.
But it's just another cycle of life, isn't it?

our very first trip (I AMsterdam)

It was my first weekend in Netherlands, so me and couples of friends decided to go to Amsterdam. We didn't know anything there but one thing we really want to see is the I AMsterdam sign. The weather was quite nice when we went there, so we traveled around to find that sign and voila! we found it. There was a huge park in front of the sign, so we spent the afternoon just laid down on the grass and took some photos to memorize our very first trip here. We also grabbed some patats which means french fries, since Amsterdam's french fries are quite popular, mine is patat with garlic mayo. So here are some photos of it :))

 

Cheese :)

 

Here's the patat!

Sure it was a quite quick trip, but we'll definitely go on another trip and lots of photos are coming up! Yeay! So excited to go and get some more incredible experience :))

I didn't plan for this

A letter for you.

Hey, I'm here. In a different place, far enough I can say. But I'm stuck with the same heart.

Somehow I'm fine, I smile to show you I'm okay, even it can't deceive you. But why do you still ask?

Once I had my story, a painful one. I can't feel, I can't trust, I'm numb. So play me fair, if you do care.

I never ask you this way, to stitch my scar. So don't come closer would be better or I will fall to your dimension.

I apologize if I overact, because I forgot how to react, forgot how a 'tomorrow together' would bring happiness.

So many words I could think about you. Few are my wishes and none I can say it loud.

I just realized, having you around feels nice, too addictive. But a part of this brain tells me that you're just the same, like others.

If only I could say I miss you.