"I'm happy"

I'm happy, just don't ask me more.

I'm enjoying the moment, every single day. For the first time after these couples of months, it feels so easy to smile even laugh. I try not to worry about anything, about what will happen tomorrow or about how things will end up. I try to let things happen naturally, the way it is. And amazingly things turn into beautiful sparks, like fireworks which brighten up the night sky. I just want to be positive, at least for this time while everything seems so wonderful.

If people ask why I've been so happy lately, I might say I don't know actually. It might be because of things go right as I planned, or because I have lots of time to spend with my favourite people in good places, or it might be because that one favourite person. Usually people will conclude it's the third reason that takes bigger impact. But at some point I realized, I lost that one favourite person some times ago. Actually it's not that I lost the person, I just lost the feeling of making this person my favourite one.   Most of people might not know that this person let me go first, when I tried to hold on. Maybe that's why at some point I barely feel nothing about this one person, but then I know that I'm happy to know that this one person is doing fine. I know it's too naive, most of the time I'm being too naive.

So that's why I think it's time to just be happy, be free, be thankful. Because sooner or later the rainbow will fade away and there will come another rainy season before the sun shines again.

Cheers :)

in This Story

If you know how hard it is for me to trust,

or if you know how hard it is for me to believe.

But I chose to trust, I chose to believe,

that you might be real.

I don't blame you for what have gone wrong.

I'm trying to let you go,

using the way you asked me.

But as you know,

everything comes to an end,

and I don't know when and how the end will come.

(in this story)

like a star

I no longer have anything to say
All I do is just stand here and wait for you
Wait for you to make up your mind
Because I made mine up, my decision
Not to stop feeling this unrealistic feeling
That one song plays on my playlist over and over again
And it's about you, about us
I wish you could be here
Hold my hand and feel how hard it is
For me not to fall again
For you.