Those Old Songs

Yeayy it's holiday already!

I've done all of my exams earlier than some of my friends, which means I got my holiday a bit earlier. It feels a bit surreal to hit holiday at last. It's kinda awkward when suddenly there's no more assignment to do or exams to be stress for. But it feels good, yes it really does.

Actually I still have some projects to do, I should make some designs for some events in my church and I enjoy it a lot. But since it's holiday, like usually I have my own 'me-time' even during doing these stuffs. Lately I've been listening to some old Indonesian song (that brings lots of memories I can say). I think those old songs are great, each of it has its own meaning. Here are two songs that keep playing in my playlist during I'm posting this post, maybe some people don't like or even think that these two songs are a bit tacky or cheesy, but just listening to it after a long time it sounds great.

Pelangi di Matamu - Jamrud

Risalah Hati - Dewa19

 

Just another learning process

I heard from my friend that sometimes, people that you think is an important people in your life, even you are willing to do anything to help them in any condition and always put them as your priority, THEY JUST DON'T CARE about you or they have their own priorities in their lives, and maybe you're not even make it to their top 5. To accept the fact that they won't be there for you like the way you were there for them, it's quite difficult. Because you think you have them who will always support you with just saying "everything's gonna be fine" or maybe "keep calm, I got your back. But I learn a lot about it, and realize that I will be so mean and selfish if I judge them just because they have their own perception about whom are important in their lives.

dear heart

NO MORE YOU

end.

Even if you won't believe

You say I hurt you over and over again,

The truth is I always try my best to make you proud.

You say I can't control myself,

The truth is you don't know how suffer I am to keep things going right in my life.

You say I won't ever understand, care, or try to change,

The truth is I'm dying inside and blame on myself for everything.

The truth is I'm broken.

For so long, have never healed.