Am I fine? Is my heart okay, or it still feels hurt? I'm not sure. All I know is I'm confused with my own personal feeling. But sometimes I think what for I always think about him, someone who doesn't love me anymore or even care about me? But I'm afraid to know the fact that he's in love with another girl, who want to dumb him out of her life and he desperate to get her back as his girl. Does he know that I want him to do the same way to me? Does he realize that I always care about him? I love him even he's not that perfect and he already hurt my heart deeply.
I know people will give me an advice to forget him, and if I don't they will call me an idiot, who stuck to such an idiot man like him. But it doesn't matter for me. 'Cause what do they know about this feeling? I feel so right and so true when I say I love him. And what should I do when I feel so right and so true? Some of my bestfriends say go ahead dear, do what you want, follow what your heart says. So what should I do when my heart says I need him beside me even I know it will be hard and painful?
I made my own quote for my bestfriend who felt broken heart, "Don't thinking about something that shouldn't be in your mind. Don't look behind, 'cause sometimes it's too sucks to be remembered. And don't ever regret anything you've done, 'cause it will make you feel worst to yourself. Just makes it jokes!" But can I do the same way? I'm not sure. I've been trying so hard, and sometimes I feel tired.
My UNIQUE HOLIDAY
BALI WAS AWESOME! It such a great holiday. I just came home after 5 days holiday in Bali. Not like usually holiday in Bali, this time I stayed in a magical hotel. LOL :) I called it 'magical hotel' because the hotel has a unique spot with a unique condition. Actually it was clean, but it so natural. It was in the middle of RAIN FOREST. Can you imagine a rain forest in Bali? It's quite nice in the morning, but not in the evening. It was so creepy because there was no light at all. I thought it was like a forest in the new moon movie and I wished I could meet Edward Cullen or Jacob Black during my holiday. LOL :)
But my hotel's location wasn't that strategic. It's quite far from Kuta, even Seminyak. So I should used car to got there. And truthly it wasted our time. We can swim even play in Kuta's beach. Every night we couldn't go everywhere. So I just chatted with my sister who slept with me. We chatted until late night. It was quite nice to know each other better that before. We talked about boys, jokes, and even actresses.
Our toilet is placed in outside, so it was so thrilled when we wanted to go to toilet in the middle of the night. So my sister and I will go together if one of us wanted to go to the toilet. My sister accompany me had a pee in the middle of the night. Sorry sis to annoyed you. :)
But over all, it was quite a great holiday, with different way. :)
But my hotel's location wasn't that strategic. It's quite far from Kuta, even Seminyak. So I should used car to got there. And truthly it wasted our time. We can swim even play in Kuta's beach. Every night we couldn't go everywhere. So I just chatted with my sister who slept with me. We chatted until late night. It was quite nice to know each other better that before. We talked about boys, jokes, and even actresses.
Our toilet is placed in outside, so it was so thrilled when we wanted to go to toilet in the middle of the night. So my sister and I will go together if one of us wanted to go to the toilet. My sister accompany me had a pee in the middle of the night. Sorry sis to annoyed you. :)
But over all, it was quite a great holiday, with different way. :)
MY BLAST BIRTHDAY :)
Yesterday was so great! It was a wonderful day for me. Yesterday was my 18th BIRTHDAY and it was a amazing. My best friends gave me surprises. From the sweet way to disaster way. :) But I love it all and I think it was a great beginning for my new age. :)
I LOVE DECEMBER :)
I love DECEMBER!
The first reason why I love December so much is I LOVE CHRISTMAS a lot. I love the atmosphere, when people prepare for CHRISTMAS CELEBRATION. There will be a CHRISTMAS TREE, candles, presents, foods, beverages, we can also hear to CHRISTMAS songs everywhere, and the important is the fellowship. Every CHRISTMAS my family and I will celebrate with whole family. Usually we do brunch (breakfast and lunch) together, then in the evening we went to Church together. But this year, we won't do like usually, we will go to Bali together and I'm so excited. :)
The second reason why I love December so much is I LOVE HOLIDAY! As we know, we not only celebrate CHRISTMAS but also we celebrate NEW YEAR and it means long holiday! LOL :)
The third reason and the important one is IT'S MY BIRTHDAY, and I'm so excited to my birthday. I love being the birthday girl, when all of your family, friends, and even special person that you expect much will give you "HAPPY BIRTHDAY". :) I love presents, everyone does, right? :)
The first reason why I love December so much is I LOVE CHRISTMAS a lot. I love the atmosphere, when people prepare for CHRISTMAS CELEBRATION. There will be a CHRISTMAS TREE, candles, presents, foods, beverages, we can also hear to CHRISTMAS songs everywhere, and the important is the fellowship. Every CHRISTMAS my family and I will celebrate with whole family. Usually we do brunch (breakfast and lunch) together, then in the evening we went to Church together. But this year, we won't do like usually, we will go to Bali together and I'm so excited. :)
The second reason why I love December so much is I LOVE HOLIDAY! As we know, we not only celebrate CHRISTMAS but also we celebrate NEW YEAR and it means long holiday! LOL :)
The third reason and the important one is IT'S MY BIRTHDAY, and I'm so excited to my birthday. I love being the birthday girl, when all of your family, friends, and even special person that you expect much will give you "HAPPY BIRTHDAY". :) I love presents, everyone does, right? :)
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