surprise greeting, @albertaclaudia 's present 
20.B!
Count down,
when the time flies so fast, a year before feels like yesterday.
4 days more until my 20th birthday, woohoo! I always excited about birthday, don't know why actually. But there's something interested about birthday, the joy, the excitement, and it feels like 'a gate' to the new adventure in another year. I think a birthday should be a day full of joy, a magical one, and the person has kinda special authorization (they can do everything they want, lots of excuses). I always wish for an unforgettable birthday every year which full of surprises, maybe that's why one of my bestfriend told me that it's kinda impossible for someone to have a wonderful birthday each year. Sometimes there's something special on the day, but not a whole day, or even sometime the day just an ordinary day like others.
I'll be 20 soon, and for me it feels a little bit different than my previous birthday last year. 20 are not just numbers for me. I mean for these 10 years, for each year, I have number 1 as the prefix number of my age (11,12,...19) and now it will change to number 2! For age like mine, I think it's not that important to receive presents or having a party, but the important thing is how to grow more mature since now I'm no longer a teenager anymore. For me personally, it will be better if I can spend the day with people whom I love, rather than receiving lots of presents but there's no one around me to spend the day. I really enjoy surprises, everyone does I think, but the most wonderful moment is when you know that all people whom you love and you expected to come, they made it and come to show that they do really care about you.
I've been through such an unstable year this year, I've been bad, or even worse. But I do really hope that I can be better and better again. 'Cause nothing will change if I can't even change myself. I wish this year could be another great year, another great birthday. :))
when the time flies so fast, a year before feels like yesterday.
4 days more until my 20th birthday, woohoo! I always excited about birthday, don't know why actually. But there's something interested about birthday, the joy, the excitement, and it feels like 'a gate' to the new adventure in another year. I think a birthday should be a day full of joy, a magical one, and the person has kinda special authorization (they can do everything they want, lots of excuses). I always wish for an unforgettable birthday every year which full of surprises, maybe that's why one of my bestfriend told me that it's kinda impossible for someone to have a wonderful birthday each year. Sometimes there's something special on the day, but not a whole day, or even sometime the day just an ordinary day like others.
I'll be 20 soon, and for me it feels a little bit different than my previous birthday last year. 20 are not just numbers for me. I mean for these 10 years, for each year, I have number 1 as the prefix number of my age (11,12,...19) and now it will change to number 2! For age like mine, I think it's not that important to receive presents or having a party, but the important thing is how to grow more mature since now I'm no longer a teenager anymore. For me personally, it will be better if I can spend the day with people whom I love, rather than receiving lots of presents but there's no one around me to spend the day. I really enjoy surprises, everyone does I think, but the most wonderful moment is when you know that all people whom you love and you expected to come, they made it and come to show that they do really care about you.
I've been through such an unstable year this year, I've been bad, or even worse. But I do really hope that I can be better and better again. 'Cause nothing will change if I can't even change myself. I wish this year could be another great year, another great birthday. :))
blank.
when a house is not a home,
a road is no longer bumping but it's straightly going down,
torturing words,
an open scar,
and even tears are useless.
blank
Nothing I wish for,
Nothing I hope for,
I learn to hang on nothing.
I wouldn't have shouted and disclose everything,
even if I want to.
I try to look fine,
tough,
doesn't mean there's no feeling.
'cause even I show it,
they will just say it's non-sense,
(as if they care)
Where are you guys?
The time I need the most
I just need the presence
feeling secure, nothing more.
Sorry if I'm not that damn good,
not that thin, beautiful, and warm-hearted,
laugh when it goes wrong, I try hard
but still has human's feeling
could be hurt,
could be healed.
blank.
a road is no longer bumping but it's straightly going down,
torturing words,
an open scar,
and even tears are useless.
blank
Nothing I wish for,
Nothing I hope for,
I learn to hang on nothing.
I wouldn't have shouted and disclose everything,
even if I want to.
I try to look fine,
tough,
doesn't mean there's no feeling.
'cause even I show it,
they will just say it's non-sense,
(as if they care)
Where are you guys?
The time I need the most
I just need the presence
feeling secure, nothing more.
Sorry if I'm not that damn good,
not that thin, beautiful, and warm-hearted,
laugh when it goes wrong, I try hard
but still has human's feeling
could be hurt,
could be healed.
blank.
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